Fractured Ankle + Toothache from the Pits of Hell + Lack of Happy Pills = I know I am Depressed

I ran out of one my happy pills last Monday. But I saw the dr that afternoon so I could get a new refill. And honestly, I had a 30 day supply. Of 25mg pills. And instead of being upfront with the dr at my last appt, I decided to self medicate and take 50mg …

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Little Steps: Day 80 – Change is in the Air

I had my bimonthly therapy session yesterday. Some days, I know exactly what issues I need to talk thru. Others, I dont know where to start. And on rare occasions, I walk with an extra pep in my step on my way in. Floating a little on the confidence that I am doing alright. With …

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Little Steps: Day 52 – The Trail Ends Here?

I apologize in advance. But my mind is a tangled mess. Thoughts are flying around a thousand miles a minute. Crashing in to eachother. Trajectories unknown. My fingers are full of dread. The words want to flow faster than they can be given passage. I have no idea what is about to overflow the walls, …

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Little Steps: Day 23 – Pause. Reflect. Move Forward.

Day 23: 3.14 miles / Total miles: 21.28mi / Days left: 156 / Time:2:01:15 / Pace: 38'35 Yesterday was my first hike since last Thursday (Day 18). I ended last week on such a euphoric high. And then this weekend happened. And I desperately needed to go for a hike. I couldn't go Monday. I …

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The Loving Myself Journey: Gate #4 – Special Needs PTSD

Like the past 3 gates, this one came in like a wrecking ball at the speed of light, knocking the wind out of my sails, leaving me stranded in 82ft waves. Before I realized what hit me, I was drowning. In the middle of an ocean I built with my own 2 hands. No one …

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